Do other folks have this too, that you're kinda always in an observer position?
Like I often have to force myself to not talk about us always in the third person.
That once prompted to the question if there is maybe a third, but I dunno.
I think it's rather that I always try to be the observer, not an actor.
I did that with interests before too and other things and slowly try to unlearn it.
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